Poems of the JanuaryWitch

All poems are written and copyrighted by Lisa Hollimon-McCall.

Look My Way

If you still love me, then let it show

If there's no real love, then baby let me go

And I know that I have no way

To make you dream of me alone

My voice isn't the one that makes your eyes smile

I'm left standing here all alone

Like so many times before

I always want to believe there is something more

I don't want to see that I have to realize

That I should walk right out the door

I want to believe that you love me still

But then I remember I can't find myself in your eyes

I wish the hate to go away but in the end

Your soul will never look my way.

Too Much To Ignore

I turned to you

Just to say that

I don't love you anymore

These emotions that surround me

Well, they are too strong

They run all through my soul

Yes, it's my soul

And it is too much to ignore

The love that was once my light

You said all those cruel words

Each time I close my eyes

It's my heart that tells me

That you will not take them back

I can stand here forever

And never be the one you take

The one you want in the end

Love isn't enough for you

My loyality to you

It was so blinding

I could stay here for a day

But she will tell me

Still that I am in her way

This is too much to ignore

Someone please give me

The strength that I need

For me to finally walk out that door.

Loveless Sight

She could cry for a thousand days

Still his smile will never be sent her way

The light fades as she says

"I didn't see you standing there"

The thread unwinds

Slowly uncovers her eyes

And a loveless sight

It was that she did see.

She Cries For Us

With arms outstretched

Toes pointed downward

Her hands are tied

Is this how Christ felt?

It's endless circles

Paths that lead nowhere

Everyone is running away

Will the end ever come?

There is no beauty allowed

Crying is silent

Those with sight

Are being lead by the blind

Is there any Faith left?

Those with hearts

Follow the ones with none

Where is the Belief in that?

Her arms are open

Wide enough for us all

She cries for us

Is this how Christ feels?

ButterFly

My oldest daughter

Is the butterfly

I pray for her every day

She has her wings

You can see...

That she wishes to fly

I love her dearly

The world should see her

Through a mother's eyes

Maybe then, only then

It won't  be so very quick

To tear away her wings

My oldest daughter

Is the butterfly

Allow her to keep her wings

Watch her fly

Learn to be free again.

Blueberry Seas

Dreams of friendship fail

Security is hopelessly lost

Travel is  suspension of our fears

Just along as we stop to admire the faeries

All through the blueberry seas

To meet at the hotel of sinners

As demon's are catching a ride

Upon the wings of the fallen fae

I now do dream

To say come hither

To chase the dragons

While running after fireflies

All through the meadow

Feel soft grass under foot

Flowers spit their essence

To wish a smile to your face

We dreamed as we dreamed before

Blasphemy will only betray hypocrisy

During the stolen moments at the time of dusk

Beg that someone should pray for us.

Until The Mind Breaks

Love becomes hate

Hate turns into fear

Fear loses our belief

Belief that never was faith

Yet we try to continue

Walking up to the gate

Dreams die, the tears dry

And nobody remembers our names

That we were not part of the circle

Darkness lost because of the light

Yet we can't admit to defeat

Everything we touch is wrong

We carry on despite ourselves

It is never the way we see it

Eyes closed, hearts broken, souls empty

Need still searches for want

I can't remember when he cried last

The tears that were never real

So we can watch our love turn into your hate

Until the mind breaks.

God's Toy

I thought that I rose above it all

That my fall was complete

The circle was closed

My grip was held tightly around

The tiny bit of humanity

Angels threw down to me

Just to rip it away from me

Here I now stand dead on the inside

Compassion is a glimpse of Heaven

I closed my eyes as I fell backwards

Trying to remember how love really is

What love really was

Before it became this river of blood

Sit with me for just a little while

See these blue eyes die in front of you

My heart is empty...my soul is dead

And my mind is still screaming

Heaven...Hell

There is neither for me

For I am only God's tiny toy.

No

I'm not the one who said

They would never go away

I can't promise that one

No, no can't see this really isn't me

Here, sitting here

Waiting here

No, this isn't how I believed

I would finally become

No, please tell me no

That this is not me.